hey dev art,

so turns out i got an internship. i work as a web dev; answering help desk tickets, editing webpages, soon i'll probably be creating webpages for the site.
btw: i work for American Univeristy... >.> <.< >.>

i'm supposed to work 8hrs 5 days a week, i work just about 11hrs. (7/8am - 5-6am) (only get paid for the 8)
what can i say, i enjoy being there.

as of right now, i just feel defeated.
like i dont know, just cant win and no point to much anymore.

a friend of mine who i was supposed to hang out with blew me off two days straight, after being completely for hanging out.
another friend of mine doesnt talk to me much, even when i try (hell it was even her idea for us to talk more cause we dont talk much not). asked her what on her mind, cause i know she has a lot to think about with the drama in her life, she tells me "nothing." turns out she has a lot on her mind.
(i know i know, seems like i'm blowing all of this up like crazy...but doesnt feel like it)

feel like the girl, amber, that i had a crush on has some how just slipped completely out of my mind.
i dont know, just feels like what ever we might have had before summer break had just evaporated, although that's probably my fault cause it was my belief that while she was at Field Training she shouldnt be bothered or anything like that with texts or messages; so i've not really talked to her.

just so ronry. seems like i cant get any of my friends to hang out. oh well...
havent been on EVE in a while. >.> <.< >.> hooray for 30day skill training times...

just bored and ronry.